I’m going to have to choose between my own feelings and those of my family. Fuck.
Choose yourself. You only have one life. Live it true to what you know about you, and you know about the world, and how you think the world should be. Live you, embody you. Either your family will understand, or they won’t. Either way, in the long run it matters most what you want for yourself. Even though I don’t know you personally, I extend my support.